Entry nineteen: j'ai cédé et je sais pas trop quoi en penser

The day before St.Patrick's Day, we were writing to each other a lot. Things were said, we got horny, I just gave blood and was drinking alcohol (yeah, not the best of ideas, I know) so I was a bit tipsy when I accepted to drive to his place and stay there for the night. (I had to walk 40 minutes and take a shower before actually driving. I was totally fine by then.) I thought things would be awkward, since we hadn't seen each other in over 2 months, and since I told him I was done, last time I was supposed to see him, but it wasn't. At least, not for him. He acted like he always did, looked happy to see me, cuddled. It was weird.

As usual, a movie was playing, but I don't know what the plot was since things were starting to heat up 15 minutes after it had started. Foreplay was different though, and it took me a while to notice why; he couldn't get it up, which had never happened before. And when he finally did, it lasted 2 minutes. I laughed, and I felt so bad about it. It honestly doesn't bother me, I mean, I know it can happen sometimes, and it doesn't mean anything, but he was so mad at himself, and he was just so cute. Can I just say I made him moan! I've never we heard him make a sound except when he talks. We tried again about an hour later, was a bit longer. Then we talked a lot. We talked about cars, we talked about computers, we talked about how I'm never gonna fall in love with him (yeah right, who am I trying to fool -.-) and then, when he looked super thoughtful, I asked him what he was thinking about. He told me that he shouldn't act stupid with me and that he could show affection

How can I not fall for that?

Seriously!

The guy's a dick, but he's like a really cute dick!

Anyways, the next morning, he was supposed to kick me out if the house at 11:30. We got up at 10, had sex, took a shower while drinking a beer (hey, it was St. Patrick's Day after all) and then, we went to pick up his friend so he could have breakfast with us (of course, I took care of the food) and party afterwards.  Anyhow, I ended up staying with him 'till 4, hanging out with his friends and meeting drink, green people. One of his friends called me the girlfriend, he presented me to another friend as "most importantly, this is (please insert name here). And right before I left, we went back to his place, alone, and even though he said he was deceived by the partying (or lack there of), he looked at me and smiled and said he was happy. And then, we went outside and he kissed me. 

Wtf

Like, he could've kissed me while we were still inside, where nobody would've seen us, but he waited until we were outside to do so, even though I was acting relatively distant since I wasn't sure if I was only a booty call it not.

This guy is so confusing!

Also, I'm pretty sure the other guy I slept with saw me with him. Anyways, he had t been answering my texts for a while. I hate it!